It has been almost 4 years since I last posted something on here.
4 years. A lot has happened. And a quick text conversation with my mother today got me thinking, and the thoughts in my head would not stop swirling and maybe by writing them down, my mind will settle.
She was texting me about Easter, and how she really wanted me to go to Church with them. And I told her that I really didn’t want to go to church. Which I’m sure upset her, but she accepted that answer. But I feel like I’m ready to explain how I got to this point in my faith, and what has been going on the past 4 years of my life. But to start, we have to go back a bit further, and I should make a few declarative statements about me.
I just turned 31 years old. I do believe in God (though at this point in time, I don’t know that I want to be called a Christian). I am bisexual. Continue reading →
The past three and a half years have been among the most challenging & rewarding times for me. There were days where as a staff, we would sit around and wonder “why are we doing this?”. I would sit there and think “I can’t go on, I can’t do this anymore.” It was in those moments, that my favorite quote from Lord of the Rings comes to mind (here’s the YouTube version, if you prefer it)
Sam: It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn’t want to know the ending, because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened. But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come and when the sun shines it’ll shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you, that meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr Frodo, I do understand… I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only the didn’t. They kept going, because they were holding onto something…
Frodo: What are we holding onto, Sam?
Sam: That there’s some good in this world, Mr Frodo… And it’s worth fighting for.
“We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. To quote from Whitman, “O me! O life!… of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless… of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?” Answer. That you are here – that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. That the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?”
“The powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse.”
From the first moment I found out about the passing of Robin Williams, this line has been stuck in my head. Over and over and over it plays.
That means we get together, listen to cliché words, phrases, and quotes, all for the sake of something that, let’s be honest, you probably wouldn’t have finished if your parents hadn’t pushed you.
I love celebrating accomplishments, but I HATE cliché stuff… I hated my own graduation cuz of all the clichés, but I went to a graduation last night because my “little brother” was graduating… As I was live tweeting Pequea Valley’s Graduation last night, I said this: Continue reading →
Yesterday, the largest internet protest in history took place. Companies like Google, Wikipedia, Reddit all took part in this protest, along with many smaller websites (including mine). The protest was against SOPA & PIPA. (more info here)
I also posted (or rather, set up hootsuite to post) every hour with links to information and action steps to help inform people. It was an effective protest I think. A lot of people were informed. I’m pretty sure a lot people took steps to do something.
Wake up child, It’s your turn to shine
You were born for such a time as this.
~ “The Anthem” by Jake Hamilton
Yesterday morning I took a friend to work, and as we were talking on the drive in, he said to me “Joel, I feel like this year is going to be a defining year for me.”
I have been feeling the same way as I have been thinking about this year. I feel like this is going to be a year where God defines and grows so many things in me. It’s awesome, it’s scary. Continue reading →
I don’t know how many of you play the game “Truth is…” on Facebook, but for those of you who don’t know what it is, someone puts the phrase “Truth is…” on their status, then if you “like” it, they have to post what they really think about you on your wall…