Worn Out No Longer

And my prayers are wearing thin
I’m worn even before the day begins
I’m worn I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn so heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart that’s frail and torn
I want to know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

~ “Worn” by Tenth Avenue North

I have been feeling so worn out recently. I love my job, I love people, I love serving, I love helping, but recently it’s been tough. From the time I awake until I go to bed at night, I have to fight and try so hard to keep a good attitude and serve with a smile on my face.

It’s because I see so much pain on a daily basis, so much hurt, and so many times I just don’t know what to do, it’s tiring.

I needed a vacation. Continue reading

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Points of View & Opinions

Today’s post isn’t going to be very long I think, I want to pose a question to you:

Why do we always assume the worst? Continue reading

Reunions & Best Friends

2 of my best friends arrived home last night.

They have been traveling around the country, seeking themselves & God. (you can read about their trip here)

After they got back, we hung out at my house. It was amazing to me how we could all pick right back up where we left off in our friendships, almost like they had never left.

But they had.

And they when they came back, they weren’t the same people, but that is a good thing.

There is a beautiful thing that happens when friends pursue God individually and together. It’s that similar passion for the pursuit of God that allows miles and months to separate us, yet we never grow apart…

The more I’ve spent time with other people, hear their stories, I have realized how rare it is that I actually have a GROUP of friends like that, when many people don’t even have ONE…

I can’t wait to see where God calls us all to in the future, and while I’ll be sad if/when that calling separates us, I take peace and joy in knowing that it is because we are all passionately pursuing God, and I know that no matter the miles or the months, we will always be close friends.

Ruined by Majesty

I’m falling at Your feet
Ruined by Your majesty

~ “Falling At Your Feet” by Among Thorns

This song is one I used to listen to all the time and have recently “rediscovered”, in fact, I blogged about it very early on, it was one of my first posts. But today, I want to revisit it.

This idea of being “Ruined by Your majesty”. What does that mean? And why does this fill us with such joy? Why does this make us want to press into God more? Continue reading

Free Will

“’Why did God give free will to human beings?’ Because free will, though it makes evil possible, is also the only thing that makes love possible. A world of robots would hardly be worth creating. God has designed his high creatures for the happiness of being voluntarily united to Him and to each other in an ecstasy of love and delight, of which the most rapturous love between a man and a woman on this earth is but a dim reflection. To enjoy such a love, human beings must be free.”
~ C.S. Lewis

Free will… It’s what makes us human. This ability to, ultimately, do what we want is an amazing gift.

And an amazing curse. Continue reading

Seeking Counsel

As I have been talking to people recently about counselors, and all that, I got to thinking, what is a counselor exactly?  We think of them as therapists, and someone who we go and see when we have a mental problem, or when we are in debt, we see financial counselors, and problems in marriage, we see marriage counselors.  And with all this, we get the notion that we have to have some degree to be a counselor, but this is not true.  When you look up the word “counselor” in the Merriam-Webster dictionary, the first definition they give is this: “a person who gives advice or counseling.”  See, a counselor is just someone who gives advice.  So many times, we have a counselor, and don’t even realize it.  This person is someone who, when you get in a fight with your girlfriend or you mess up with them and now she is mad at you, or vice versa, you look to them to talk it out.  This is the person who, when you lose a friend or someone close to you, they are there to comfort you and remain there for you as long as you need them.  This is the person who is there for you every step of the way, who says: “no matter what happens, I am there for you.”  They do things to help you without thinking “What is in it for me?”  All they want to do is help.  If you don’t have a counselor, let me encourage you to find one, find someone whom you trust to do what is best for you.

Thoughts on Friendship

“When you can’t run anymore, you crawl, and when you can’t crawl – when you can’t do that, you find someone to carry you.” ~ Firefly

I spend a lot of time talking about friends.

But that is because friendship is one of the most important things to get you through life. They are the ones to laugh in your joy, cry in your pain, and pull you along when you don’t have the strength.

But what is a true friend? In an age where you “friend request” someone on Facebook after meeting them for 5 min, I wonder if we have lost the true meaning of what it means to be a friend… Continue reading

Openness

The most important aspect of any relationship is being open with each other. Whether it’s dating, friends, family, spouses, anyone. The relationship will only survive if you are open about things with that person. Keeping feelings (good or bad) inside and not sharing them is the quickest way to guarantee that your relationship will fall apart. Continue reading

Peace and Serenity

So, for those of you who don’t know, my sister got married on Saturday. It was a beautiful ceremony, and yes, I did manage to hold it together  (I did tear up a few times, but I didn’t cry).

But with the wedding comes the chaos of the getting ready, the (what felt like) 5,000,000 people, and the tons of “congratulations” (like I had something to do with getting her hitched, lol.) Then after the wedding, we have all the party and the family and friends who come to the house to change and gather their stuff and all that.

It’s a lot of fun, but for an introvert like me, it’s maddening, draining, and overwhelming.

I usually deal well with being in situations like that, but this was probably one of the most draining experiences of my life. It got me thinking, why was this so draining on me?

Then it hit me.

From the time I got home on Thursday night until the time I left on Saturday night to go back to Gap, I didn’t have time to myself to pray or read my bible.

No peace.

No serenity.

No time for God.

I know. It’s really disturbing to me that my time was pushed away so easily. That time to ourselves is so important. We need to take time to relax, de-stress, and chill with God. Those are the most important times in our day. They are the times that give us energy and the power to keep on going on.

Never forget to spend time with yourself. To come back to earth, reflect and gain perspective .