You probably noticed that I missed my post on Thursday. That was because I was sick. I left work early Wednesday because I couldn’t work, and then Thursday I worked for one hour before going home and sleeping the rest of day away.
Then Friday we had a kick-off party thing for my 2 best friends before they left for their trip. Saturday morning, I had to get up early to practice for a play for church, so I only had the chance to say a quick goodbye while they were half-asleep.
Their leaving was much harder on me for me this time for some reason…
Well, it’s that time again, everyone is getting ready to leave… again…
Somehow, it seems both harder and easier this time.
In about 9 days, Cameron & Tyler will be leaving for the second part of their trip, but this time, they will be joined by Josh! (you can read the announcement here) They have some really cool idea’s for this leg of the trip, but we’re not ready to publicly announce it yet, so check out their blog for that announcement soon! All I can say about it is that it gave me the reason I needed to buy a piece of equipment I’ve wanted for a while now :). It is easier, because they’ve already been gone for a while, so this isn’t something new, but it’s harder because I’ve just started to get used to them being home again…
I love having guest posts, so for the last post from my review of this past year, I wanted to put up the post written by my now roommate Chris Hall…. If you want to guest post, please feel free to shoot me an email via the contact page, or if you have my email, email me directly…Continue reading →
As we come to the end of the year and the end of this journey down blog memory lane, I wanted to come back to a more recent post of mine, this one describes a struggle and a prayer of mine in recent times as things happen around me… Continue reading →
Well, today is Thanksgiving Day. So I guess I’ll be like everyone else and say the things I am thankful for…
First, is my family. Mom, dad, sister, cousins, aunts, uncles, grandma… They have been the ones who have shaped me into who I am today with their love, support, and strength through all my crazy idea’s, plans and escapades… and stood by me through it all.
Next I’d like to thank my “extended” family. Not like cousin family, but those people who are like family to me (ie my adopted parents, brothers, sisters, etc). Glenn, Luli, & Jordan Stoltzfus; Rodney & Stephanie Smoker; Cody & Cameron Hall; Ryan Dagen; Tyler Stoltzfus; My “little bro”, Brandon; Josh Stippich; Gordon Heinrich; Jonathan Masteller; Mahlon Beiler & so many more… Continue reading →
“My love is over, it’s underneath It’s inside, it’s in between The times that you’re healing And when your heart breaks The times that you feel like you’ve fallen from grace” ~ “Times” by Tenth Avenue North
It’s 11:09 at night, everyone else is in bed, and I find myself sitting alone in the dark with a heavy, breaking, heart, tears rolling down my face. I guess I should back up. For almost 6 years now, I have started off every morning with the following prayer, “God, let me see people the way that you see them, and let me love them the way that you love them.” I’ve expanded it since then, but that was what it started as. And about 5 years ago, he started really answering that prayer in a major way. Continue reading →
Here’s to the twilight
here’s to the memories
these are my souvenirs
~”Souvenirs” by Switchfoot
When you look around my room, you will find an assortment of so many random things. (seriously, ask my roommates, they’ll tell you). There’s a teddy bear, there’s poster with burnt paper, a jar of oil, an old style bullet, a can that had the side ripped open, a key, a pin to a grenade, a ship, some rocks, and I could go on and on.
Why do I have them? What is their purpose? to many people, these items are probably just a random collection of junk. But to me, every item is a memory, and more important than just a memory, it’s a memory of a person, and a life changed. Some are memories from my own life, a memory of a version of me in the past (some good, some bad). And some are memories of someone else’s life that I had the awesome chance to get to watch (and if I was really lucky, God let me play this little tiny part in). Continue reading →
Lately I’m not who I’m supposed to be
Thoughts and words are acting differently
Where do you even begin when you’re too lost to see
the beginning or end?
Have you ever felt like you weren’t where you were supposed to be in life? Ever felt like your not who you think or feel like you should be? And on one hand, you don’t like it, but on the other, you don’t want to forget or “cure” it
I don’t want a cure to leave behind this part of me
I hide on a stage
Inside a dream
Do you ever find yourself hiding, sometimes right in plain sight, but not really as honest or authentic as people think? I know I do. I find myself thinking all the time “if only you knew what was going on inside my head, you wouldn’t love me so much, or at least have a lot less respect for me…” Continue reading →
This is a follow up to a previous post, which you can find by clicking here
Well, as I am sure you are all glad to hear, life has begun to calm down.
As life has been crazy these past few days, I am beginning to fell the swirling wind around me calm down. Yes, there are lots of pieces of debris to pick up and deal with, but at least they aren’t flying towards me anymore. There are conversations I still need to have, and people I need to talk to, but I think I’m now in a state of mind where I can do that. Continue reading →